I really enjoy writing and laying out my thoughts, whether by journal in private or by blogging for the world to see. I wish I could say that I have done well at either of the two in the recent past. If you are reading this perhaps you can identify with my struggle. My heart’s desire is to have a vibrant growing personal time of devotion, prayer, and journaling and to turn that into ministering effectively through the use of this blog. The reality is I barely have time to keep up with the daily grind of life and my personal devotion life.
Last Sunday’s sermon at my home church, First Family Church, struck home with a point as we are studying the first chapter of the book of Acts. Pastor Todd challenged us with a pointed statement: “Being “on mission” — making disciples — is not merely an opportunity for us; it is a responsibility for us…”. On our way home from church, I asked my wife what this meant to her and where she saw her “responsibility” fleshing out. Her response, was simply that our children were her primary responsibility for discipleship . It’s hard to argue with that… we have a 6 year old, 4 1/2 year old, and twins that will turn 3 at the end of next month. Given my wife’s role in our family as a stay at home mom and primary educator, she is right. Admittedly I struggle with this… it seems like there should be more that I am doing…
In my personal devotion time, I found myself asking God, “what is my responsibility and am I fulfilling that responsibility?” While I have yet to hear God speak to me in a clear audible voice, I could feel His Spirit that indwells me confirming that leading my family and discipling them is currently my primary responsibility. But instead of feeling burdened or inadequate of this calling, I found freedom. Instead of feelings of despair because of my failures, I felt empowered to overcome them.
My thoughts over this past week, have certainly put a bow tie on a lot what I have pondered for the past 10 months. While God has certainly put many opportunities before me, it is vitally important for me to take my biblical responsibility for making disciple seriously. While, I know that I will never perfectly disciple my family, I know that God can take my imperfect effort and use it to accomplish his eternal purposes. Praise be to God!
Psalm 127: 1-6 – “Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it; unless the Lord guards the city, the watchman keeps awake in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, to retire late, to eat the bread of painful labors; for He gives to His beloved even in his sleep. Behold, children are a gift of the Lord, the fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one’s youth. How blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them; they will not be ashamed when they speak with their enemies in the gate.”‘